yup, that's pretty much how I've felt since Friday (the 16). just not a happy camper. why you ask? Well I am now a member of the unemployed status.... I was layed off and told " We hope to call you back in a few weeks" some how I doubt that will happen. but hopefully it will (even though I hate my job, I NEED one) so, if it seems that I've been around more often its because I now have more free time then I know what to do with.... Finding some where to get a GED is first on the list, then I have all that art work I can do. Not to mention that I should be writing more Fenn.... Anyway, just in case if any one has notice that I'm not as um... "Chipper" as usual that's why... sorry if I'm annoying any one with all the depressing journal entry's...

Yeah,I know I shouldn't be whining but I just want to vent a little bit. Trust me it wont last long and you have the option to not read this so...
Anyway, My day starts out with one of the pigeons that like to roost in the barn taking a crap on me. Yeah, but I can handle that, I'll just do laundry when I get home no biggie. This week, my mothers out of town so, one of her friends are taking me to the barn to take care of the goats. ( I don't have a license and we don't live on the farm, we have to rent a barn. long story. also, my mother is using said friends car, so said friend is using our car.) So as she's taking me back home, the car blows a tire. Again, no biggie, I'm a big girl I can change a tire. Well the car is old and its a "northern Indiana" car, which means its got a lot of rust. I get to the point where I have the flat tire off and I just need to jack the car up a little bit more to put the spare on. And then it cracks. car falls down with NO tire, and I yell some thing that I'll spare you the reader from. Luckily, farmers are helpful and friendly, and one got his fork lift out so I could put the spare tire on and be on our way. I don't know what I'll do next time a tire goes flat on that car, so I hope to talk to my mom about getting a new one ( I'll help pay of course.) Next, my hunt for a GED. yeah, yeah, I still haven't done any thing with that. trust me I get an ear full nearly every day, so yammering at me some more wont help. part of the problem is I work full time and I have a hard time FINDING time (time time time time time!) so I can work on signing up for classes. Part of the problem is (I suppose its a good problem) that I try to take what little time I have and work out. why do I work out you say? not only would I like to fit in to a pair of jeans that I feel I look GOOD in, I'm trying to get my self fit enough to join the Army. Yeah, that's what I want the GED for as well. And before you start yammering at me about the Army I just want to say I've pretty much heard it all, And this is not a decision I'm taking lightly. I have thought about this heavily for about a year now, and only a few months ago have I told family/friends. So, I hope to end my day with a movie and friends, tomorrows my birthday and I turn 20 (yey me) and there was talk that we would get together tonight and have fun.

Wow that was longer then I thought. sorry to anyone who took there time to read that...